Its done

Hey Guys,

I said I would keep you updated and heres the update. Yesterday at about 3.30pm I resigned from my job and I already feel better. I love the people and the actually job is great but there is also alot of drama that surrounds it. For once its not the people with the drama its the actual job. I did a dog act and resigned the same day the other half of my team (Julie) resigned but I just thought it would be easier for them to look for 2 now instead on one now and one later. I have done the right thing and given them almost 6 weeks to find someone so I do feel better about that. A workmate told me that we spend the majority of our time at work and you should be happy. Also if I wanted things to change and be better- only I can make the changes. So my shoulders feel alot lighter and im really excited to look for a new job. Ill miss everyone at Kosmos and will always be grateful of what opportunities they have given me bu its time to move on and have a change.

Next change on the list- New Husband... JUST KIDDING I dont think I would get through the days with out Ryan..Im always trying to figure out how two people love each other soo much.. like so much it makes you smile when you think of them and you cant be angry at him.. I have one of a kind my friends.. He is one of a kind and his mine... so lucky.

Enough mushy mush stuff..

Love you for life! xx

hate to complain

Why do people complain and do fuck all about it.

I'm one of those people completely. complain complain complain (mostly about work) and just put up with it..

I promised myself i wouldnt get stuck and god damn it im getting out.. whats the worst that can happen.. someone have a go at me.. fuck it. im up for that. Having this new way of thinking has already made me happier..


Something is gonna change and soon- ill keep you posted when i find out what it is :)

I WANT IT ALL

I WANT IT ALL------------ NOW NOW NOW..

Hello my friends.

Been a while. I'm listening to the album I And Love And You by The Avett Brothers.. Not the usual sound i would listen too.. loving it.. Makes me think about all kinds of shit. Particularly how much I want, how I want it now and feel like I'm missing out on something. The thing i want is adventure. OK I moved to Darwin with my new husband but that was almost a year ago.CMON... Now i work 5 days a week and have 2 days off to clean our house and try and get relaxed. Once I'm relaxed I gotta get ready for work. YAY! I want the adrenaline feeling back, uncertainty, no plans, fretting even ey. Mm mm Any Ideas what i can do? I'm not unhappy or anything but I'm lacking motivation and need something exciting to do..

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WHATS BEEN HAPPENING-
Came back from Melbourne after Christmas. We had a total blast. It was the first time Ryan and I have been back together. First time for Ryan since we moved up here. He needed a well deserved break. Trying to fit everyone in to see was a bit hard but we managed too. It was great seeing everyone and i loved catching up with my girlfriends from the Posse and my old work.. I miss them so much. Also catching up with family and our 2 gorgeous nephews was fun as too. Cant believe how fast Dylan and Jai grow ey. its crazy That is one thing I now know i totally take for granted. The fact that i don't have the option of seeing family and old friends. Maybe that's the missing out part i was talking about earlier.

Look how big Dylan and Jai are--- such cuties!! -both gonna be heart breakers :)

D-MAN =spunk

JAI JAI= LIL MONSTER

LOVE THEM S2

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1 BIG YEAR OF MARRIAGE-
On the 13th of Feb, Ry and I celebrated 1 great year of marriage. Man a year goes fast. It was an awesome year. Being with Ryan made all the difference hahaha We booked a room in the city for the night and went out for dinner. Had a bottle of wine which was soo nice- it was called Kapooka. yummy We had dinner at Seafood on Cullen and it was soo yummy. i love food a bit too much i think. We were totally full when we left. The next day we woke up late and went to see Black Swan at the movies.. that was good. Swam in the pool and did some sun baking. I need to get this stupid tan off my ankle from when we were in Melbourne.



The whole time we were gone we kept asking each other how we thought Jackson would be.. "oHH he is probably crying at the door" or being all depressed coz we aren't there" I know-losers. We left him alone and we couldn't wait to get back to see him.. It was a great weekend and I am so lucky to be with Ryan its just incredible. He is one of a kind :) i love him

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BETTER GO HANG THE WASHING
I can hear the washing machine beeping so it means my washing is ready to be hung.. oh how i love hanging washing. When its a bit windy its refreshingly cool. You never know when its going to rain here. Could be the hottest sunniest day and in a second it could all change. I do love it. Just hard trying to dry washing. When it rains its the heaviest rain and it pours and pours, then it just stops. If the washing gets stuck in the down pour it needs to go back into the machine for a spin or two so i try to race out there and get it off.

OMG the song I'm listening to is called - Laundry Room- The Avett Brothers. What a coincidence. I only looked at the name of it because its a good song and I want you to hear it :-).

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Speak soon
Love you baby... :-x

catching up

Hi Everyone,

My apologies for being so slack. I know i say it every time, but the fact is, i dont really get much of a chance to up date coz ryan is always on the computer! Anyways im here and you have me.

Well lots has happened since we last spoke.


I got back to Darwin. My beautiful boys home waiting for me. Ryan looking good as always and Jackson had grown so much! was weird as.

In august im pretty sure, Megan and James came up to see us. It was only for a few days but it was AWESOME! we went to litchfield and swam in the rock pools, that place is amazing. I live about 40 minutes away. not far at all. So if you would like to see it. YOU BETTER COME UP!

Not much else has been happening. Oh Jackson got desexed. FUCK ME everyone at my work was like why why, how could you do that... thats awful.. and this wicked chick Jess said " at least let him have his first root!" and ofcourse, i was horrifieD haha. anyways he got it done, without rooting anything. I felt totally bad about it, but it will stop him straying and no son of my is gonna get some girl pregnant before marriage :0) His has grown heaps.. check out these photos and videos
he had been digging





Tricks


The video below is of Jackson and our neighbours puppy Oscar. They do this every morning when im getting ready for work. Oscar goes nuts barking.



UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM WHAT ELSE. Ryan has been working hard. I love him so much. Living with him is totally stress free and relaxed. im very lucky.

Check out this massive lemon meringue. no i didnt make it. I bought it for my cousins dinner and its huge! my god..

was yummy though.



What else. This weekend or next week im going to get my hair chemically relaxed! I need to do something. its driving me nuts. i straighten it and about half an hour later its frizzy.. only gonna cost about $180.00 and i cant wait.. its not going to be dead straight. hopefully it works.

anyways i will load a picture when its done.


well i better be off. gotta feed jackson.

missing you all heaps. and i promise to keep the blog more up to date.

i will see you all from 22nd of december- 11th of January!

love you all

muah muah
Sarah xx

suppppppppppppppppp

Still in Melbourne for the last stretch. I go home to Darwin on Sunday and I sort of can't wait. Its just so cold here. My whole body has gone into meltdown and is freaking out.

Interesting facts.


My asthma is one thousand times worse in Melbourne than it is in Darwin. I didn't even think to bring a Ventolin inhaler with me and on the second night i needed one! and fast.

My skin is showing that eczema loves the cold. My hands are starting to itch and in a couple of days i think the lines on my fingers are gonna crack! OUCHIE!!!!!! Just something that i always had to put up with. ALSO MY FUCKING SICK ON MY FACE is sooooo dry!

I now have a very strange and unwanted love for Kylie Minogue. After seeing her on hey hey its Saturday i am just in love. I bought her cd the next day. I never thought the day would come and its shocking you know. I have vowed by Christmas i will have a kylie minogue body or at least something a lot closer to hers and a lot different to mine. haha I really wanna get into shape now. She is like 40 and looks amazing. See what the cold weather does to you! make you go loco
I love her.




On the up note thought i have caught up with lots of people. So busy doing everything. Ive caught up with la familigia and la friends. Unfortunately the winter weather has taken over a lot of my friends good health so they are resting it up big! I have been to my cousins Emma for dinner. She made an awesome creamy pasta. She also makes a great lasagna! I went to see some friends play. Raven vs Crow. Enjoyed that! And caught up with a few other mates!


Being back at my parents place, i now realise how much they did for me when i was at home. Especially my mummy. The amount of washing my brothers chuck in the basket and the dishes they use is crazy and annoying. I don't know how i never realised. I used to do the washing and stuff but since Ive been here, every day the basket is full and the dishwasher needs to be put on. what the hell! In Darwin i do washing on the weekend but here, there would be clothes everywhere if it wasn't done during the week.

Ryan has been out field since last Tuesday and I haven't heard from him since Monday. Ahhh i miss him so much. Not seeing someone is weird but not speaking to them and for this long isn't really nice. I guess this is something i will have to get used to but ahhh its hard! i wonder if he misses me. Hopefully :P He is on course and will be eating rashen packs and sleeping in tents. Carrying heavy shit around and probably using weapons. So much fun for a boy!

Well today looks sunny and the washing machine has already been on. I will now go and hang it all. Tonight ill be seeing Twilight Eclispe, with some chickies! cant wait...

OMG I forgot to write about Jackson, That little guy has been on my mind this whole time and i forgot! He is staying with my neighbour Heather. I called her the other day to check on him and he is doing just fine. Eating sleeping and playing. I asked her if she thinks he misses me and she nicely but awkwardly said yesssssss. I know he doesnt and by the sounds of things, he is having the time of his life! I bet he has grown heaps. I cant wait to see him!

Peace! x

Home Cold Home

Hey Hey,

How are you guys?

Shout out to people that comment on my blog. So nice that you even read it. Love you

So it turns out that im back home in ATOWN and im freezing my butt off. I never remember it being so cold. I was looking forward to wearing my jackets and scarfs but i need more than that. I dont have ANY long sleeve tops and only bought tshirts from Darwin so i am stuffed.

Ryan has been on course for the last month and a bit. He has gone out feild as of today for 10-12 days and Im not going to hear from at all. Not even a little phone call. Gonna be soo weird ey. So with that happening and me being afraid of losing my mind, i booked some flights and walah, here I am.
I know you are probably thinking about our child Jackson. He is fine and hanging out with our neighbour Heather. She loves him and spends all day at home, so she was the perfect person to feed and play with him while we were gone. Tonight is the first night neither of us will be there and im finding it a little stressful worrying about him. I know he will be fine though! He has mastered rolling over and high five and shake. I took all his food over to Heathers and she must hear me saying HIGH FIVE JACKSON HIGH FIVE all the time. So asked him for a high five and he sat there so still and put his paw up perfectly, i chuffed like a proud mother. I was so pleased with him, it was a bit embarrassing how rapt i was. haha. He is just the best!

Coming home was a massive decision. Jackson was the main issue in regards to what we were going to do with him. He hasnt had all his vacinations and no kenal would take him in. I was goin to bring him to Melbourne but thought he might get lost or sick because of the weather. And also stressed on the plane. And last of all it was leaving Ryan full stop. Over the last 2 years we have been apart more than ever and even though we have done it a million times, saying bye kills me. I hate leaving him and hate him leaving me. I sorta feel like Bella when Edward leaves. Just doesnt feel right. Being home makes it a bit different and seeing everyone is fantastic. We will be back together soon!

I finally finished Twilight new moon and loved it. I know i always say i want to be a vampire but im sure i just want to be Bella. 2 guys after her, thats crazy. I watched the movie today and Jacobs body... MY GOD. I am sooooooooooo team Jacob and that is for the shallow reason that i like the way he looks and that Edwards six pack looks shitter than Jacobs. I am going to try and read Eclipse before i see the movie but i know its not going to happen ey. Takes me forever to fit in time to read. I am reading though and making the effort still!

Not much else to report. I am in Melbourne until the 1st of August, so if anyone would like to catch up, you most likely have my number or email me! Up for anything!!!!!

Take care and love youxxx

Catch up blog.

Ohla everyone. Long time no speak AGAIN!
Sorry for being slack and not posting..
Ive had the busiest couple of weeks and just havent had a minute to myself.

On the 13th of June a few things happened.. I turned 24, my awesome husband gave me some red raybans as a gift, my parents were flying in to visit and we picked up the new addition to our family.. Lil Jackson..A beautiful 9 week old lab x golden retriever. So cute!

Anyways, so this day was hectic.. Not only did we have to pick up Jackson before 3pm but my parents were flying in at 2!

We went to get our child first. Whilst there, I got a comb, some chewing stuff for him, a couple of toys and had to fill out all the paperwork. The girl went to get me a comb and then asked me to go see which one and guess what happened! The most embarrassing thing that could happen to one self. I sorta rushed off, not seeing that beside me was one of those floor weights that animals go one. My big toe slammed into it and i went fucking head over heels and landed basically on my fache'. ( For those that dont speak fluent spanish, fache' means face) So i landed on my fache', raybans went flying... to my HORROR! Ryan thought i was dead coz apparently i lied there without moving for a couple of seconds.. i could have melted into the ground at that second... So i got up, and then made every effort possible to get out of there! But that was a challenge as my husband could barely catch a breath from laughing so hard. Anways we got the dog and the brush and everything else and left. Once in the car, Ryan turned to me and explained step by step what i looked like from behind falling..

Here are some photos of him..








He has his puppy moments.. Biting is one of them.. He has crazy sharp teeth, that hurt!!!! So far he knows how to sit, lay down, roll over, shake hands and high five. Pretty cool when he does them all in a row.. Its crazy how fasts he learns. He knows his name and is a pretty laid back kind of dog. We had fireworks night last week and for the 2 weeks before they were saying on the radio to leave our dogs in the laundry because they will be scared and could ran away.. But not Jackson, he wasnt even fussed.. and actually slept outside. So proud of him ahha..

Since we got him, he has also grown heaps.. bit scarry. He will probably get as big as my friend Bouchers dog, Charlie.

Enough about the new love of my life.

My parents can up to the top end on my birthday, and what a treat it was having them here. Not only did they do the odd jobs that we didnt get around to doing but mum cooked.. and i miss her cooking. They only stayed a week and my heart broke all over again when they left. So shit saying good bye. But the house wasnt completely empty when they left. My brother Stephen and 3 of his mates were also up. They stayed for like 10 days and that was great too.. Loved having people at our house. Its been just Ry and me for 4 months now and i loved showing them around Darwin.

What else has been happening.
Work has been pretty busy. Its fun though. Leanne the girl i work with has started doing office pranks on me. Like sticky taping the hang up button on the phone, so when i answer it, it keeps ringing. Also she said someone had called when i was out and i called them back and it was the fucking sexyland up here. I got her back with the same shit and made her call the place where that dickhead manager that used to work with us, works now. I laughed soo hard. I have to come up with more. Tomorrow im going to swap all the tops of her stamps around so she stamps the wrong thing. Lame I know, but i must get her back. She is really awesome. She actually has a pet pig named Willimina. My boss keeps saying he is going to eat here.. Awful person.

Ryan is doing super good. Working so much lately. They have him doing this course. I cant really explain what its for, but basically he will be able to teach people on weapons, pt and other stuff. Poor thing has been working weekends. Love him to the moon and back.

Speaking of Moon, im still reading twilight, new moon. Im almost done, its taken me ages. Again i wish i was a vampire.. but that will never happen.


Unfortunaltely i have missed out on some of my friends birthdays..
TRAV
FLICK
SIMO
SEONA
JADE
MEGAN
:(
Happy birthday Guys.. I hope i havent missed anyone.

Better be off.. Love you all lots and lots

Peace xxx